Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Getting Back on Track

Greetings everyone! It’s been some time since I have posted on this blog. I’ve been dealing with life as life has been dealing with me.

Sitting here today, I can’t help but to be thankful for having endured tremendous growth over the past few years and I am eager to share some of my experiences with you. I am working on a couple blogs at this time. Autism’s Love is my first blog. There have been several name changes while I’ve been thinking about the general format for this blog. My life is rich with many aspects of being on the spectrum. It’s hard for me to decide which angle to write from. Not only am I a parent of a wonderful child who is diagnosed with Autism, but I too am on the spectrum having been given a diagnosis of Mild Asperger’s Disorder.  I received this diagnosis later in life than most, but I am appreciative of this journey into a much needed search of self. I love this leg of my journey, figuring out how to navigate my new found freedoms as an Aspergarian while trying to making sense of my tumultuous past. I embrace myself, my child and the unknown. 

Still a bit undecided on a particular path for this blog, I move forward allowing my blog to take shape on its own. I’m not too good at pushing my ideas into a particular direction. It is best for me to focus on what life has to offer while waiting to see the direction my ideas decide to take. It might even be a surprise. Much like my art…pictures begin to present themselves to me as I put pencil to paper. I have no idea what the pictures are going to be until they completely reveal themselves to me. There are times when thoughts of completion are interrupted by the introduction of other components to stories revealed. What an exquisite exchange, waiting to see what stories my somewhat eccentric, vaguely whimsical, romantically inquisitive mind will come up with as I transform blank canvases into life, movement and expression.

The other blog that I am working on, Night Eating Syndrome is my second brain child. My greatest influence being the lack of information available about this particular eating disorder. I was diagnosed at the age of 19 by a wonderful doctor who saw many things going on with me and worked diligently to put me on a better path. Unfortunately, I went into denial about this disorder, but managed to address it periodically. Only after becoming ill many years later did I decided to take my diagnosis seriously. Fear of dying was the wakeup call that I needed.

 I hope the readers of Night Eating Syndrome will share their stories and personal battles with eating disorders of any kind. My hope is that this blog will be a safe place for sharing, learning, healing and support.

I have quite a bit on my plate to manage along with my regular day to day of being mom, entrepreneur and artist. Though this is a daunting task for me, I now know that I must commit all of my work to God to be able to succeed. As I write my blogs I am healing. I am regaining my authentic self by understanding self as I am, not by how others want to see me

Thank you for your encouraging words and support.

Love and light to you all.

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