Sitting here today, I can’t help
but to be thankful for having endured tremendous growth over the past few years
and I am eager to share some of my experiences with you. I am working on a
couple blogs at this time. Autism’s Love is my first blog. There have been
several name changes while I’ve been thinking about the general format for this
blog. My life is rich with many aspects of being on the spectrum. It’s hard for
me to decide which angle to write from. Not only am I a parent of a wonderful
child who is diagnosed with Autism, but I too am on the spectrum having been
given a diagnosis of Mild Asperger’s Disorder.
I received this diagnosis later in life than most, but I am appreciative
of this journey into a much needed search of self. I love this leg of my
journey, figuring out how to navigate my new found freedoms as an Aspergarian
while trying to making sense of my tumultuous past. I embrace myself, my child
and the unknown.
Still a bit undecided on a
particular path for this blog, I move forward allowing my blog to take shape on
its own. I’m not too good at pushing my ideas into a particular direction. It
is best for me to focus on what life has to offer while waiting to see the direction
my ideas decide to take. It might even be a surprise. Much like my art…pictures
begin to present themselves to me as I put pencil to paper. I have no idea what
the pictures are going to be until they completely reveal themselves to me.
There are times when thoughts of completion are interrupted by the introduction
of other components to stories revealed. What an exquisite exchange, waiting to
see what stories my somewhat eccentric, vaguely whimsical, romantically
inquisitive mind will come up with as I transform blank canvases into life,
movement and expression.
The other blog that I am working
on, Night Eating Syndrome is my second brain child. My greatest influence being
the lack of information available about this particular eating disorder. I was
diagnosed at the age of 19 by a wonderful doctor who saw many things going on
with me and worked diligently to put me on a better path. Unfortunately, I went
into denial about this disorder, but managed to address it periodically. Only
after becoming ill many years later did I decided to take my diagnosis
seriously. Fear of dying was the wakeup call that I needed.
I hope the readers of Night Eating Syndrome will share their stories and personal
battles with eating disorders of any kind. My hope is that this blog will be a safe
place for sharing, learning, healing and support.
I have quite a bit on my plate to
manage along with my regular day to day of being mom, entrepreneur and artist. Though
this is a daunting task for me, I now know that I must commit all of my work to
God to be able to succeed. As I write my blogs I am healing. I am regaining my
authentic self by understanding self as I am, not by how others want to see me
Thank you for your encouraging
words and support.
Love and light to you all.
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